tired.. i beat tons of level of candy crush this weekend lol. ANDDDD lately, kayloh has been IMing me like crazy.. wtf! like at 8am.. i just went on for a sec to speak to my bf, but he IMed me right away. like seriously, i am not a cure to his boredom.. i dont get WHY he thinks *I* would enjoy talking to him when he doesnt say anything! lately all hes been trying to do is like indirectly guilt trip me for not hanging out w/ him.. i seriously cant because i have FUCKING EXAMS to study for! and the only person im willing to hang out with is my bf or anyone that i don't see often.. like someone who doesnt live in chicago and is only visiting. jeez. and i was bored out of my mind saturday.. but it turns out.. even when i do go out, like i went shopping for a little while today.. its not enjoyable when all u can think about is all the work u have to do! lol. so i went through like 6 out of the 9 packets for micro.. it sure took longer than i expected.. i also didnt touch biochem AT ALL. which is NOT good. like seriously.. "studying" while candy crushing and listening to loud music.. i think i went through like 2 lectures in like 5 hrs hahahaha. when i finally stopped the music and candy crushing (i was all candy crushed out! lol), i was able to go through some lessons.. not like i really memorized anything, but i dont want it to be the first time im looking at it the night before the exam.. although studying for micro is kinda futile.. will he REALLY make it short answer? i didnt even do the study questions yet.. do i even have time to? how many of it is mult choice? and i bet i can do just as well if i study the night before.. like really study. well tomorrow will be dedicated to biochem obviously, since the exam is tues morning lol. sigh i really wish david would drive me to starbucks and study w/ me, but i TOTALLY understand why he would rather study w/ jim and felix lol. he's better friends w/ them AND they might actually help him.. i cant provide much help when im clueless also hahaha. i hope i do well on my two exams this week. arghhhh :'(

sigh.. so lonely haha. i SERIOUSLY need to find ppl who value me as much as i value them.. i always dont want to hang out w/ or talk to ppl who want to hang out with and talk to me.. and try desperately to talk and hang out with ppl who don't really give a shit about me. its so easy to see if the other person actually cares about me or not.. er.. needs me or not haha. i just dont talk and see if they talk to me! and of course, he would only talk to me if he needs my help. jeez. lol